Letting go.
>> Tuesday, September 21, 2010
So I've been going through a lot of stuff these days, mostly just learning to lean on the Lord. If I'm being really honest, I've failed miserably. So many times I doubt that the Lord has my life and all the things I'm dealing with in His hands. Why? Why do we doubt? The Lord has proven Himself faithful to me so many times...so why can't I just step out of the boat and trust Him? Well, I've given this a lot of thought...and honestly I think it's because (at least in my case) when I sit down and ask myself the question "Is Jesus worth this to me?" (from the book Radical by David Platt) I tell myself that I would rather have this thing than God's best plan for my life. I would rather take this under my own control and know what's going to happen rather than trust that God will reveal His perfect will to me in His perfect timing even if that means laying in bed at night confused, or walking blindly because all I can do is live one day at a time. How ridiculous does that sound?! If you seriously sit down and think about it......I am choosing to take control of something when all I can see is today. All I see are my feelings. All I see is the discomfort. All I see is laying down something that I so desperately want. I'm deciding today that I'm giving it to the one who sees all. The one who places desires in my heart. The one who is always faithful. The one who is love (not the one who loves...he IS love!!). The one who is perfect in all He does. Doesn't it make so much more sense to give every piece of our lives to Him? We sing songs and tell the Lord all the time, "God you have my heart, you have every piece of my life" but is it true? Does He really have every part of your heart. Have you given Him the things you hold most dear to your heart? Have you given Him the things you want to control? If we looked deeply into our hearts and truly examined our lives, I think we would see so many things that we say He is in control of, but honestly...we still hold on.
